The Pressure of Pursuing a Dream

In December, I quit my part-time job as Communications Assistant at our church to pursue my dream. Sounds romantic, doesn't it? And it is! I just wish I hadn't told everyone that's what I was doing!

Everyone has a different dream. For some it's being a mom. For some it's traveling the world. For me it's...well, I told everyone it is to be a writer. That's what made sense to my husband, and it sounded neat and tidy - not too many words to explain to someone who questions why on earth I would quit a job in this economy!

But there is more to my dream than that. It's far more impractical (more impractical than being an aspiring writer, you ask?). Unfortunately, yes. And for the first time, for all my millions of readers to read :), I'm going to explain my real dream.

I believe I was created by God and saved by a most loving friend, Jesus. I believe that he created each of us uniquely, and that sometimes our gifts seem a little, well, useless. That's where my dream comes in. I have always been an idea girl. I love to think of ideas, better ways to do something, or fun ways to communicate an idea - even if no one likes or uses my ideas, the very activity of mulling them around in my brain and sharing them with someone is highly satisfying to me. It makes me feel alive! My problem is that I rarely follow-through with an idea. And why is that? Fear.

I don't remember exactly where I saw this, but for some reason it seems like it was on the show "Different Strokes." There was a young boy who said he was the fastest boy in the world...until someone timed him. I am the most creative person in the world...as long as I never actually produce something outside of my own mind that people could actually judge.

So pursuing my dream requires trusting that God put these ideas, passions, dreams, whatever you want to call them, into my DNA when He created me. I may not be the most creative girl in the world, but I don't have to be. I'm going to brave and crack open this skull and let some of these ideas out on the table for all to see. But watch out. It could be messy, and it may hurt a little.